i freaking love kris allen. i'm glad he won american idol, although adam would have been good too. but i've loved kris the whole season. if you don't believe me you can check my itunes, cause i've downloaded like 5 of his songs. and i never download idol performances.
last night i had a dream that kris and i fell in love. it was totally cushy and random and crazy. i wish i could say it was a raunchy sex dream, but it wasn't. apparently my brain can't even fathom me having sex anymore (sad) yet falling in love w/ kris was no stretch of the imagination. we were like, hanging out in my apartment talking in my dream. and that was it. warm butterflies, total devotion. it was hysterical. i woke up and actually giggled. perhaps tonight i'll get to round 2 of the dream, and there will be less clothing involved.....
sadly, he's married. at 23. although his wife is adorable, and i loved the moment when she got up on stage w/ him at the end of the show and they hugged. she is the luckiest girl ever. :)
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
neighborhoody
something weird happened to me today. well, i suppose i should start from the beginning. i had a good weekend, but i've been spending too much time alone. i went all weekend basically by myself, (because i refuse to count the washing machine repair lady)- and i'm totally ok with that, except that it has been happening a lot lately, and the effects are starting to show. i don't do well with prolonged isolation. i get sad and lonely and depressed. exhibit a- i bought 4 pairs of earrings on sunday. pure sign of me needing to be around more people. i like the earrings, but i fall into the popular category of spending money to make myself feel better. a bad habit, i might admit.
so i called my mother on monday. something i'm also used to doing when i feel sad and isolated (among other reasons...i talk to her a lot). i promptly announced that while i knew i'd be here for at least another year, i was 'kind of done' with philadelphia. she was supportive and gave me a brief lecture about joining groups like i was in need of high school extra curriculars. hey, she tried.
and then today, work was super busy. my boss was in 'let's give diana extra work so i don't have to do it' mode, and i had lots of people to see and paperwork to do and little down time. so the day went by fast. after work i did something new and different- went out with coworkers. i am shy. i am not super friendly with my coworkers, but this nice nutritionist bethany is leaving tomorrow to move to san fransisco w/ her new doctor husband for his residency. so she organized a bowling outing for people from work tonight. i, i have to admit, like bowling. if it was like 'oh we're going to a bar' i most likely would have passed. but bowling? i can bowl (kind of). and my large feet certainly look fantastic in bowling shoes. and they were going to this bowling alley i'd never been to in northern liberties- so i listened to the voice of autumn in my head saying " you should go and be social. you aren't making new friends on your couch" and i thought 'ok autumn, you are probably right. i need to get out a little more. this would be a nice way to get to know my coworkers more'. and i WENT.
even more than that- i drove up to northern liberties, and when i got there, i completely fell back in love with philadelphia. because that's the thing. philadelphia is a very neighborhoody city. it's like a bunch of fun different cities, rolled into one. well, whatever you know what i mean. and i'd heard good things about northern liberties, but it looks so cool! there are all these cool looking restaurants and bars! and organic food stores! and hipster looking people! and this funky little bowling alley where it only costs $7 a game and they serve tater tots. you heard me. tater tots. what's not to love about a neighborhood like this?
so i went, and bowled a game (57), and mingled with coworker, laughed a bit, ate some tots. and came home. and i was happy.
i then watched american idol at the gym, and by the way i got these new gym pants over the weekend at old navy and i am obsessed with them. i even kind of like the way i look in them. and they're spandex-y. so they must be magical. and as for american idol, i know everyone says adam is going to win b/c he's the best. but i've always been a kris allen fan. he makes me want to make out every time i see his adorable face. and i thought adam sucked at the last song, which is horrible btw (ahem, kara dioguardi) and kris did better at it even though he forgot some words and it was high for him. but they both had strong moments in their other songs. so i honestly don't know how that's going to turn out. but i'm excited for tomorrow!
and to top off my day, i watched 'glee'. and FELL IN LOVE WITH IT, CAUSE IT'S THE BEST SHOW EVER. i'm sorry, songs about high school choirs rock. not like i can think of any predecessors, but it should be a given. and doing journey's 'don't stop believing'? genius. genius. i think i may download it on itunes to watch when i need a pick me up.
so, after today i'm kinda thinking maybe i'm not done with philadelphia after all. after all i haven't explored all the neighborhoods, or gone on enough awkward dates, or eaten enough cheesesteaks, or figured out what the fuck the rest of my life is gonna look like.
and i have plenty of time for all that.
so i called my mother on monday. something i'm also used to doing when i feel sad and isolated (among other reasons...i talk to her a lot). i promptly announced that while i knew i'd be here for at least another year, i was 'kind of done' with philadelphia. she was supportive and gave me a brief lecture about joining groups like i was in need of high school extra curriculars. hey, she tried.
and then today, work was super busy. my boss was in 'let's give diana extra work so i don't have to do it' mode, and i had lots of people to see and paperwork to do and little down time. so the day went by fast. after work i did something new and different- went out with coworkers. i am shy. i am not super friendly with my coworkers, but this nice nutritionist bethany is leaving tomorrow to move to san fransisco w/ her new doctor husband for his residency. so she organized a bowling outing for people from work tonight. i, i have to admit, like bowling. if it was like 'oh we're going to a bar' i most likely would have passed. but bowling? i can bowl (kind of). and my large feet certainly look fantastic in bowling shoes. and they were going to this bowling alley i'd never been to in northern liberties- so i listened to the voice of autumn in my head saying " you should go and be social. you aren't making new friends on your couch" and i thought 'ok autumn, you are probably right. i need to get out a little more. this would be a nice way to get to know my coworkers more'. and i WENT.
even more than that- i drove up to northern liberties, and when i got there, i completely fell back in love with philadelphia. because that's the thing. philadelphia is a very neighborhoody city. it's like a bunch of fun different cities, rolled into one. well, whatever you know what i mean. and i'd heard good things about northern liberties, but it looks so cool! there are all these cool looking restaurants and bars! and organic food stores! and hipster looking people! and this funky little bowling alley where it only costs $7 a game and they serve tater tots. you heard me. tater tots. what's not to love about a neighborhood like this?
so i went, and bowled a game (57), and mingled with coworker, laughed a bit, ate some tots. and came home. and i was happy.
i then watched american idol at the gym, and by the way i got these new gym pants over the weekend at old navy and i am obsessed with them. i even kind of like the way i look in them. and they're spandex-y. so they must be magical. and as for american idol, i know everyone says adam is going to win b/c he's the best. but i've always been a kris allen fan. he makes me want to make out every time i see his adorable face. and i thought adam sucked at the last song, which is horrible btw (ahem, kara dioguardi) and kris did better at it even though he forgot some words and it was high for him. but they both had strong moments in their other songs. so i honestly don't know how that's going to turn out. but i'm excited for tomorrow!
and to top off my day, i watched 'glee'. and FELL IN LOVE WITH IT, CAUSE IT'S THE BEST SHOW EVER. i'm sorry, songs about high school choirs rock. not like i can think of any predecessors, but it should be a given. and doing journey's 'don't stop believing'? genius. genius. i think i may download it on itunes to watch when i need a pick me up.
so, after today i'm kinda thinking maybe i'm not done with philadelphia after all. after all i haven't explored all the neighborhoods, or gone on enough awkward dates, or eaten enough cheesesteaks, or figured out what the fuck the rest of my life is gonna look like.
and i have plenty of time for all that.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
lovely piece
i'm sorry. i know i've been gone a long time. i don't have a very good excuse. i've been busy? but honestly, i've been meaning to write. and tonight is the night- because things are getting crazy.
first of all, my sister is getting married in a month. we're at the sprint to the finish line. for me this means going to the gym whenever possible to try and lose this 4 lbs (where did you come from?) and keeping my sister calm when she has anxiety dreams about gift baskets.
technically, i'm not doing much for the actual wedding. so it's not my stress. but dealing with my family surrounding the wedding, that is stressful. a few months ago i got so frustrated i actually called my mother bridezilla. to her face.
and then there's work. today was not a good day. i've come to expect that my days depend on the weather. nice weather = busy day. rain or slightly crappy weather = i should make sure and have plenty of reading materials. so today, rainy in the morning, kind of chilly. i only saw 2 clients. i had a chronic headache, i got into an argument with a guy at lunch about societal gender roles. (i tried not to get involved, i really did. but he kept insisting i discuss the necessity of a man 'protecting' me and deserving something in return- protecting me from what? i kept asking. i still don't understand). i was then told that with the swine flu outbreak, the clinic is expecting some cases. they don't want to bring these people with 'flu like symptoms' all the way into the clinic (even though they will be in the waiting area, infecting everyone else while they wait) so they are using the BEHAVIORAL HEALTH offices, right next to the front door, as the triage rooms. the regular triage room is 2 doors down from me. that's apparently too far. they don't want the germs to permeate. instead they want the germs in mine and jake's offices, where we sit everyday and see clients. oh, they'll clean though- with a can of lysol. they will go in and inspect the patients with gloves and a SARS mask, then spray some lysol and send us in there- sans mask. sans gloves. basically they're trying to give me the swine flu in time for arielle's wedding. did i mention that's in a month?
then, after a nice interlude of watching 'lost' with mimi, i call my aunt for her birthday and am updated on the latest case of family craziness. 'arielle is stressing herself out with the wedding' 'your mother hates the music she picked to walk down the aisle to' 'she thinks it's depressing jesus music' (we're jews. we don't do jesus. or bach, apparently). my mother, in all her glorious passive aggressiveness, sent arielle an email. the subject said "Bach" the email consisted of two words: lovely piece.
obviously this means she hates it. arielle forwarded it to me, and asked me if i had anything to do with this. like i cause her craziness! no. i have not had a converstaion with our mother about the music, because i would have told her she was insane. but arielle thought maybe mom was 'trying' to be supportive b/c i talked to her. instead, she's trying to not so subltey say she hates it. there are no trumpets, after all. and arielle needs to walk down the aisle to trumpets. probably with footmen trailing behind her to hold her train or something. wearing powdered wigs. or actually playing the trumpets!
my sister and i of course were like crying laughing so hard about this. among all the other craziness going on right now.
but i can't handle this. i've got to worry about keeping the swine flu at bay. and finishing planning the bachelorette party. and trying to get to the gym. and you know, staying sane.
so if you'll excuse me, i'm going to head to bed. and pretend today didn't happen.
and the bach really is a lovely piece. too bad it's banned from the wedding.
first of all, my sister is getting married in a month. we're at the sprint to the finish line. for me this means going to the gym whenever possible to try and lose this 4 lbs (where did you come from?) and keeping my sister calm when she has anxiety dreams about gift baskets.
technically, i'm not doing much for the actual wedding. so it's not my stress. but dealing with my family surrounding the wedding, that is stressful. a few months ago i got so frustrated i actually called my mother bridezilla. to her face.
and then there's work. today was not a good day. i've come to expect that my days depend on the weather. nice weather = busy day. rain or slightly crappy weather = i should make sure and have plenty of reading materials. so today, rainy in the morning, kind of chilly. i only saw 2 clients. i had a chronic headache, i got into an argument with a guy at lunch about societal gender roles. (i tried not to get involved, i really did. but he kept insisting i discuss the necessity of a man 'protecting' me and deserving something in return- protecting me from what? i kept asking. i still don't understand). i was then told that with the swine flu outbreak, the clinic is expecting some cases. they don't want to bring these people with 'flu like symptoms' all the way into the clinic (even though they will be in the waiting area, infecting everyone else while they wait) so they are using the BEHAVIORAL HEALTH offices, right next to the front door, as the triage rooms. the regular triage room is 2 doors down from me. that's apparently too far. they don't want the germs to permeate. instead they want the germs in mine and jake's offices, where we sit everyday and see clients. oh, they'll clean though- with a can of lysol. they will go in and inspect the patients with gloves and a SARS mask, then spray some lysol and send us in there- sans mask. sans gloves. basically they're trying to give me the swine flu in time for arielle's wedding. did i mention that's in a month?
then, after a nice interlude of watching 'lost' with mimi, i call my aunt for her birthday and am updated on the latest case of family craziness. 'arielle is stressing herself out with the wedding' 'your mother hates the music she picked to walk down the aisle to' 'she thinks it's depressing jesus music' (we're jews. we don't do jesus. or bach, apparently). my mother, in all her glorious passive aggressiveness, sent arielle an email. the subject said "Bach" the email consisted of two words: lovely piece.
obviously this means she hates it. arielle forwarded it to me, and asked me if i had anything to do with this. like i cause her craziness! no. i have not had a converstaion with our mother about the music, because i would have told her she was insane. but arielle thought maybe mom was 'trying' to be supportive b/c i talked to her. instead, she's trying to not so subltey say she hates it. there are no trumpets, after all. and arielle needs to walk down the aisle to trumpets. probably with footmen trailing behind her to hold her train or something. wearing powdered wigs. or actually playing the trumpets!
my sister and i of course were like crying laughing so hard about this. among all the other craziness going on right now.
but i can't handle this. i've got to worry about keeping the swine flu at bay. and finishing planning the bachelorette party. and trying to get to the gym. and you know, staying sane.
so if you'll excuse me, i'm going to head to bed. and pretend today didn't happen.
and the bach really is a lovely piece. too bad it's banned from the wedding.
Friday, April 3, 2009
adventurelust
i have realized recently that there is something really nice about friday nights. i never really cared one way or another before. but really, friday nights are wide open. you can do anything, go anywhere, stay up however late- with the knowledge that you have 2 full days in front of you. for some reason, i've really begun to appreciate that lately.
of course, i usually end up doing nothing on fridays- bumming around, seeing a movie, watching a movie, reading, generally spending time in my sweat pants. but hey, that's my choice. it still feels wide open, the night actually seems longer. and i usually do stay up later. just because i can.
today i left work a little early. i came home to change, and headed to target, where i bought a new top (target is a good place for basic clothes, cause they're cheap) and some budget cereal and granola bars. i then headed over to the movie theatre next door and saw 'Adventureland'. i knew pretty much from the first time i saw the preview that i was going to see this movie. it was right up my alley, and not just because we have an adventureland on long island (i dont know if i ever actually went there), but because i am a sucker for movies about post collegiate lost-ness and relationships. the movie was great. not exactly what you expect either, there are some surprises. but i enjoyed it. not to ruin it, but it ends (well, almost) with a scene in the rain, a guy waiting for a girl on her steps. she comes home and finds him there. surprise! this also happened in one tree hill this week (oops, i just admitted i watch one tree hill...), and i recognized that i am not the type of girl who has people waiting on her doorstep. this makes me a little sad, both because i know things like that don't happen in real life, and because i'm the type of person to do them. to a boy, of course. because i like to pretend life is like tv/movies. a natural side effect of watching way too many movies/tv shows growing up. not that i've done that lately, i'm just saying. sad.
i also noticed something else on my way home. i only saw one movie. friday night, plenty of movies out, i had the popcorn, and i left after one movie. truth be told, it's been a little while since i've seen a double feature. i just haven't been in the mood. what is happening to me? i am the queen of double features! this made me think of something i remembered someone saying once (wow, vague much?). the moment you felt like an adult. no- this was not necessarily one of those moments. but i thought about this, and i feel like there isnt' maybe one moment. not for me anyway. adulthood comes in steps. sometimes they wax and wane like the moon. one of my moments, silly as it may sounds, was when i started blow drying my hair. on a regular basis. i went 25 years without blowdrying my hair on a regular basis, and the results have been some boring and some wacky hairdos. but having some control over my hair made me feel more grown up. and have nicer hair. perhaps slowing down my double features is a sign of change.
change that i am still waiting for, that i don't know how to make happen because i don't know what kind of change i want it to be exactly. but i find that when life is good, or 'fine', i feel monotonous and want to do something new. is this weird? am i incapable of just enjoying a good and stable life? maybe. but i'm not yearning for instability, just something new to think about, experience, etc. and spending 4-5 hours in a movie theatre isn't cutting it right now. but just under 2 hours for a movie about feeling lost and found at the same time, that was alright.
of course, i usually end up doing nothing on fridays- bumming around, seeing a movie, watching a movie, reading, generally spending time in my sweat pants. but hey, that's my choice. it still feels wide open, the night actually seems longer. and i usually do stay up later. just because i can.
today i left work a little early. i came home to change, and headed to target, where i bought a new top (target is a good place for basic clothes, cause they're cheap) and some budget cereal and granola bars. i then headed over to the movie theatre next door and saw 'Adventureland'. i knew pretty much from the first time i saw the preview that i was going to see this movie. it was right up my alley, and not just because we have an adventureland on long island (i dont know if i ever actually went there), but because i am a sucker for movies about post collegiate lost-ness and relationships. the movie was great. not exactly what you expect either, there are some surprises. but i enjoyed it. not to ruin it, but it ends (well, almost) with a scene in the rain, a guy waiting for a girl on her steps. she comes home and finds him there. surprise! this also happened in one tree hill this week (oops, i just admitted i watch one tree hill...), and i recognized that i am not the type of girl who has people waiting on her doorstep. this makes me a little sad, both because i know things like that don't happen in real life, and because i'm the type of person to do them. to a boy, of course. because i like to pretend life is like tv/movies. a natural side effect of watching way too many movies/tv shows growing up. not that i've done that lately, i'm just saying. sad.
i also noticed something else on my way home. i only saw one movie. friday night, plenty of movies out, i had the popcorn, and i left after one movie. truth be told, it's been a little while since i've seen a double feature. i just haven't been in the mood. what is happening to me? i am the queen of double features! this made me think of something i remembered someone saying once (wow, vague much?). the moment you felt like an adult. no- this was not necessarily one of those moments. but i thought about this, and i feel like there isnt' maybe one moment. not for me anyway. adulthood comes in steps. sometimes they wax and wane like the moon. one of my moments, silly as it may sounds, was when i started blow drying my hair. on a regular basis. i went 25 years without blowdrying my hair on a regular basis, and the results have been some boring and some wacky hairdos. but having some control over my hair made me feel more grown up. and have nicer hair. perhaps slowing down my double features is a sign of change.
change that i am still waiting for, that i don't know how to make happen because i don't know what kind of change i want it to be exactly. but i find that when life is good, or 'fine', i feel monotonous and want to do something new. is this weird? am i incapable of just enjoying a good and stable life? maybe. but i'm not yearning for instability, just something new to think about, experience, etc. and spending 4-5 hours in a movie theatre isn't cutting it right now. but just under 2 hours for a movie about feeling lost and found at the same time, that was alright.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
thunderstorms and other thoughts
they have been predicting a thunderstorm all week. rain, showers, mist, storms. but really the weather wasn't too bad. it was misty yesterday, but nowhere near as bad as they said. then today, after my wonderful day of shopping/errands/relaxing, the storm came. it was brief, but fantastic.
i love thunderstorms- the intense kind where the sky turns green and the raindrops are huge and pounding. you can hear the crack of the lightning and thunder, and then within minutes it's gone.
i had this memory today, during the thunderstorm. i thought about people who hate thunderstorms, and was wondering if gizmo was afraid, and i remembered why i love them. When i was younger, in our old house, my mom had this porch off her bedroom. it had old, creaky furniture- and as time went by we hardly went out there. but when we were young, one day, my mom took us to sit out there during a storm. I think there was a hurricane watch or something, but man, was it storming. we sat on the creaky couch, and she wrapped us up in a blanket as we watched the storm. she made it safe and interesting and special. we sat and watched the sky as the wind and rain swirled around us. and it was awesome.
in other news, things are going well. i'm almost done w/ the god delusion- finally. i'm ready to move on to some good fiction. and it's almost april! time is movingly along shockingly fast. which is a good thing i guess. i'm feeling pretty good, although i could use some more gym time (and maybe some more motivation) and less snacking before this wedding. i've recently become obsessed w/ trail mix- and i make my own from various mixings at wegmans- namely almonds, craisins, raisins, walnuts and chocolate covered raisins. yum. i seem to think this is good for me and i can eat it by the pound. in reality, moderation is key. but hey, i'm still working on it. thats what april is for.
also- i realize that i watch a lot of tv. like, a lot. and i have some thoughts i wanted to share on some of my shows. because, well, just because. ok so american idol- scott blind guy macintire needs to go. yes fine, he's talented for a blind piano player/singer, but he ain't that talented, and he's annoying. also annoying? the fact that they lip synced their group number from last week. lame. oh also- megan joy corkrey? get the hell outta there too. your 'quirky' vocal stylings are not to my liking and i think you're dumb. please leave. i love matt giraud and anoop, and david gokey, although really gokey- tone down the smug attitude. you're a good singer, not michael jackson. work at it a little. oh and can we take off alison's bottom braces please? or hello- ivisiline? you're on tv. i know you're 16- but come on.
moving onto more positive thoughts, saving grace on tnt is an awesome show, and i think everyone should check it out. holly hunter is amazing. she deserves lots of awards. although she is a bit skinny. also- heroes, not so bad this season, if you've stopped watching it cause it sucked, you might want to revisit. and if you want a good new show, try 'lie to me' on fox wednesdays. its cool. and tim roth is really good in it. another thing, grey's anatomy is getting interesting w/ the whole 'izzy being sick' thing. i almost cried last week. it's been a while since that show made me tear up. although i kind of hope they kill her, but they probably won't. i also like owen hunt and his ptsd symptoms. i like shows that can educate the public about real issues that i am interested in. even if it's grey's anatomy. and finally, how i met your mother is still my favorite comedy, it should be yours too, please watch friday night lights on friday for your health and mine, and greek is starting tomorrow night (on abc family), if that's your thing. ok- those are my thoughts on tv. phew.
i got this new nail color today- plum seduction. i think i'm obsessed with it. i hope the weather stays nice this week so i can wear a dress. i love spring dresses. crap, i'm way too wired to go to bed. guess i'll go pound out some god delusion to make me tired. enjoy the rest of your sunday. it was a good one.
i love thunderstorms- the intense kind where the sky turns green and the raindrops are huge and pounding. you can hear the crack of the lightning and thunder, and then within minutes it's gone.
i had this memory today, during the thunderstorm. i thought about people who hate thunderstorms, and was wondering if gizmo was afraid, and i remembered why i love them. When i was younger, in our old house, my mom had this porch off her bedroom. it had old, creaky furniture- and as time went by we hardly went out there. but when we were young, one day, my mom took us to sit out there during a storm. I think there was a hurricane watch or something, but man, was it storming. we sat on the creaky couch, and she wrapped us up in a blanket as we watched the storm. she made it safe and interesting and special. we sat and watched the sky as the wind and rain swirled around us. and it was awesome.
in other news, things are going well. i'm almost done w/ the god delusion- finally. i'm ready to move on to some good fiction. and it's almost april! time is movingly along shockingly fast. which is a good thing i guess. i'm feeling pretty good, although i could use some more gym time (and maybe some more motivation) and less snacking before this wedding. i've recently become obsessed w/ trail mix- and i make my own from various mixings at wegmans- namely almonds, craisins, raisins, walnuts and chocolate covered raisins. yum. i seem to think this is good for me and i can eat it by the pound. in reality, moderation is key. but hey, i'm still working on it. thats what april is for.
also- i realize that i watch a lot of tv. like, a lot. and i have some thoughts i wanted to share on some of my shows. because, well, just because. ok so american idol- scott blind guy macintire needs to go. yes fine, he's talented for a blind piano player/singer, but he ain't that talented, and he's annoying. also annoying? the fact that they lip synced their group number from last week. lame. oh also- megan joy corkrey? get the hell outta there too. your 'quirky' vocal stylings are not to my liking and i think you're dumb. please leave. i love matt giraud and anoop, and david gokey, although really gokey- tone down the smug attitude. you're a good singer, not michael jackson. work at it a little. oh and can we take off alison's bottom braces please? or hello- ivisiline? you're on tv. i know you're 16- but come on.
moving onto more positive thoughts, saving grace on tnt is an awesome show, and i think everyone should check it out. holly hunter is amazing. she deserves lots of awards. although she is a bit skinny. also- heroes, not so bad this season, if you've stopped watching it cause it sucked, you might want to revisit. and if you want a good new show, try 'lie to me' on fox wednesdays. its cool. and tim roth is really good in it. another thing, grey's anatomy is getting interesting w/ the whole 'izzy being sick' thing. i almost cried last week. it's been a while since that show made me tear up. although i kind of hope they kill her, but they probably won't. i also like owen hunt and his ptsd symptoms. i like shows that can educate the public about real issues that i am interested in. even if it's grey's anatomy. and finally, how i met your mother is still my favorite comedy, it should be yours too, please watch friday night lights on friday for your health and mine, and greek is starting tomorrow night (on abc family), if that's your thing. ok- those are my thoughts on tv. phew.
i got this new nail color today- plum seduction. i think i'm obsessed with it. i hope the weather stays nice this week so i can wear a dress. i love spring dresses. crap, i'm way too wired to go to bed. guess i'll go pound out some god delusion to make me tired. enjoy the rest of your sunday. it was a good one.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Antsy in my Pantsy
I'm restless. I feel like this more often than I should, i guess. But i just get bored and want something to happen. something to make me think, something to make me feel. something to make me move. just something. and i started to get that feeling today at work.
my mom says it's because when my brain isn't doing anything i get like this. perhaps she is right. i don't like to admit those things.
see, i created a new life plan. i call it my 3 year plan, but it could conceivably be done in 2 years. after some long hard thinking, i've decided not to go and get my PsyD. (although I was accepted into Immaculata's program) It's just not for me. I don't want to commit the next five years of my life to working my ass off in school and with a full time job, to get a degree that won't change my life. So instead, i'm going to change my life. Not like, right now or anything, but in the long run. The plan is to get my clinical license (LCSW) over the summer, and ask for a raise (and probably get turned down for said raise). In the fall I will enroll in one or two classes at Chestnut Hill college in trauma studies. They have a trauma studies certificate program that is only 6 classes, and i should be able to complete it in a year or so, while working. It's a much cheaper and more to the point option of furthering my training and education. Then i'll look for a job working with veterans with PTSD. After doing that for a while, i'll re-evaulate and maybe leave philly, or come up with a new plan.
so that's it.
i like my plan. the trouble is, it's still march. and the plan doesn't really go into effect for a few months. so what to do until then? tread water. that's what. and treading water makes me restless. i'm not even enjoying my latest book that much. i'm reading 'the god delusion' by richard dawkins. i went in with high hopes, but he seems to be hell bent on converting people to atheism, and that's not really my bag. and furthermore, i dont like feeling defensive about my beliefs, how small or irrational they may be. they're mine. so i'm basically reading the book for it's scientific facts and arguments, which are interesting at times. but i can't wait to move on to something else. kind of like with the rest of my life.
my mom says it's because when my brain isn't doing anything i get like this. perhaps she is right. i don't like to admit those things.
see, i created a new life plan. i call it my 3 year plan, but it could conceivably be done in 2 years. after some long hard thinking, i've decided not to go and get my PsyD. (although I was accepted into Immaculata's program) It's just not for me. I don't want to commit the next five years of my life to working my ass off in school and with a full time job, to get a degree that won't change my life. So instead, i'm going to change my life. Not like, right now or anything, but in the long run. The plan is to get my clinical license (LCSW) over the summer, and ask for a raise (and probably get turned down for said raise). In the fall I will enroll in one or two classes at Chestnut Hill college in trauma studies. They have a trauma studies certificate program that is only 6 classes, and i should be able to complete it in a year or so, while working. It's a much cheaper and more to the point option of furthering my training and education. Then i'll look for a job working with veterans with PTSD. After doing that for a while, i'll re-evaulate and maybe leave philly, or come up with a new plan.
so that's it.
i like my plan. the trouble is, it's still march. and the plan doesn't really go into effect for a few months. so what to do until then? tread water. that's what. and treading water makes me restless. i'm not even enjoying my latest book that much. i'm reading 'the god delusion' by richard dawkins. i went in with high hopes, but he seems to be hell bent on converting people to atheism, and that's not really my bag. and furthermore, i dont like feeling defensive about my beliefs, how small or irrational they may be. they're mine. so i'm basically reading the book for it's scientific facts and arguments, which are interesting at times. but i can't wait to move on to something else. kind of like with the rest of my life.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Recharging
So i've been gone for a bit. I was busy, then sick. And now i'm getting over my cold and things are going well so I thought it was time to return and share what i've been up to.
First things first- Marc Banks came to visit! It was very exciting, because in the three and a half years that i've lived here he's never come to visit before. (ahem). But he ventured down from Boston for a long weekend- and we had the Best. Time. Ever. Seriously.
Here's proof:
So, here's Marc posing at banana republic- he indulged me and tried on a lot of things. sadly, we left empty handed, but it was fun!
The picture of the two of us was in the back of autumn and aaron's car, when they graciously gave us a driving tour of the city at night.
Saturday morning (or afternoon...) we headed over to Reading Terminal so Marc could see Philly's version of Quincy Market. He enjoyed it.
Here we are in historic Philly. I'm serving up the Constitution center on a platter. Marc is really feeling Barry, behind Independence Hall. (for the record, i make most visitors do this pose for the camera. gotta love barry).
In other news, i've been hard at work reading books and tackling the Great Book Challenge of 2009. I finished Barack Obama's "The Audacity of Hope", which was interesting if maybe a little outdated given the current financial crisis and political landscape. I went on to read "The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox", which was originally recommended to me by my old co-worker Vanessa. It was very haunting and interesting, but kind of stopped short of being great.
This past weekend I did something unexpected, I got a library card! I was staring at my list of books, and didn't feel compelled to pick any of them up, so instead of giving in and buying a book (boooo bad) i went to the nearest branch of the Philadelphia public library and signed on up! I got out two books, David Sedaris "holidays on ice"- which i promptly read, and further solidified my apathy towards David Sedaris. I know people love him and he's supposedly amazing, which is why i picked up the book (also it was right in front of me on a shelf as i began to browse)- but it didn't really do it for me. So I went back to my pile and picked up "the Tao of Pooh", which was given to me by Kim for christmas- and surprisingly i really liked it. I wasn't sure how i would do with a book relating eastern philosophy to Pooh (one of my favorite childhood characters), but i really liked it, and it actually did a good job explaining Taoism. So i learned something to boot!
Finally, i'm reading my other library book- Steve Martin's "Born Standing Up". I really wanted to buy this book, because I recently heard that Steve Martin released an album of banjo music (which is good and i plan on buying), and it made me want to learn more about him. And i have to tell you, i haven't loved Steve Martin's comedy (i tend to shy away from overly goofy/visual props) but i looooooove his book. Seriously. it's awesome. He's incredibly smart and funny and you can hear him telling you his story, which makes it feel very intimate and cool. So- everyone go read the book! Whether you love his comedy or not.
Next up i'm returning back to my pile o' books to master "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins. It's a doosy, but i'm excited to tackle it and see if i learn a little something. I'll let you know how it goes.
And most importantly, i'm headed to New York this weekend to hang out w/ Arielle and Keith and Glenn (happy birthday boys!) and the Jons, arielle's fun friends from England! So- cold be gone! I have more important things to do!
First things first- Marc Banks came to visit! It was very exciting, because in the three and a half years that i've lived here he's never come to visit before. (ahem). But he ventured down from Boston for a long weekend- and we had the Best. Time. Ever. Seriously.
Here's proof:
So, here's Marc posing at banana republic- he indulged me and tried on a lot of things. sadly, we left empty handed, but it was fun!
The picture of the two of us was in the back of autumn and aaron's car, when they graciously gave us a driving tour of the city at night.
Saturday morning (or afternoon...) we headed over to Reading Terminal so Marc could see Philly's version of Quincy Market. He enjoyed it.
Here we are in historic Philly. I'm serving up the Constitution center on a platter. Marc is really feeling Barry, behind Independence Hall. (for the record, i make most visitors do this pose for the camera. gotta love barry).
In other news, i've been hard at work reading books and tackling the Great Book Challenge of 2009. I finished Barack Obama's "The Audacity of Hope", which was interesting if maybe a little outdated given the current financial crisis and political landscape. I went on to read "The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox", which was originally recommended to me by my old co-worker Vanessa. It was very haunting and interesting, but kind of stopped short of being great.
This past weekend I did something unexpected, I got a library card! I was staring at my list of books, and didn't feel compelled to pick any of them up, so instead of giving in and buying a book (boooo bad) i went to the nearest branch of the Philadelphia public library and signed on up! I got out two books, David Sedaris "holidays on ice"- which i promptly read, and further solidified my apathy towards David Sedaris. I know people love him and he's supposedly amazing, which is why i picked up the book (also it was right in front of me on a shelf as i began to browse)- but it didn't really do it for me. So I went back to my pile and picked up "the Tao of Pooh", which was given to me by Kim for christmas- and surprisingly i really liked it. I wasn't sure how i would do with a book relating eastern philosophy to Pooh (one of my favorite childhood characters), but i really liked it, and it actually did a good job explaining Taoism. So i learned something to boot!
Finally, i'm reading my other library book- Steve Martin's "Born Standing Up". I really wanted to buy this book, because I recently heard that Steve Martin released an album of banjo music (which is good and i plan on buying), and it made me want to learn more about him. And i have to tell you, i haven't loved Steve Martin's comedy (i tend to shy away from overly goofy/visual props) but i looooooove his book. Seriously. it's awesome. He's incredibly smart and funny and you can hear him telling you his story, which makes it feel very intimate and cool. So- everyone go read the book! Whether you love his comedy or not.
Next up i'm returning back to my pile o' books to master "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins. It's a doosy, but i'm excited to tackle it and see if i learn a little something. I'll let you know how it goes.
And most importantly, i'm headed to New York this weekend to hang out w/ Arielle and Keith and Glenn (happy birthday boys!) and the Jons, arielle's fun friends from England! So- cold be gone! I have more important things to do!
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