tonight as i was driving from work to chestnut hill to meet my friend rachel for dinner, an odd thing happened. i was driving along, listening to the radio (wxpn, naturally) and i could have sworn i could hear a gps voice talking to me. it sounded like an automated, potentially british voice faintly telling me where to turn. and it was WEIRD. because i couldn't really hear it- but i knew it was there. faintly.
and i thought to myself, "is this what my clients who hallucinate go through? is this what that's like? am i going crazy?" and it was an odd feeling. i found myself being quiet (well, i don't normally make too much noise while in the car by myself), listening for the voice. like- "is it still there? what is it trying to say to me now?"
see, i didn't actually need directions- because i knew where i was going. so i began to think maybe the voice might say something else. but it disappeared. just like that.
and i was kind of sad.

its funny, because i've been feeling kind of ineffectual at work lately. (that's a word, right?) i have a combination of people who either come to me with fires to put out in their everyday lives, or to vent, or people who are traumatized to the point where i feel like i don't even know what to do.
and it kind of sucks. and i feel kind of stuck there. and i don't even know what i want to do instead.

so i was kind of open to the idea of a gps british lady* (hallucination) giving me life tips.


*if you're out there, feel free to come back at your leisure.