lovely piece

i'm sorry. i know i've been gone a long time. i don't have a very good excuse. i've been busy? but honestly, i've been meaning to write. and tonight is the night- because things are getting crazy.

first of all, my sister is getting married in a month. we're at the sprint to the finish line. for me this means going to the gym whenever possible to try and lose this 4 lbs (where did you come from?) and keeping my sister calm when she has anxiety dreams about gift baskets.
technically, i'm not doing much for the actual wedding. so it's not my stress. but dealing with my family surrounding the wedding, that is stressful. a few months ago i got so frustrated i actually called my mother bridezilla. to her face.

and then there's work. today was not a good day. i've come to expect that my days depend on the weather. nice weather = busy day. rain or slightly crappy weather = i should make sure and have plenty of reading materials. so today, rainy in the morning, kind of chilly. i only saw 2 clients. i had a chronic headache, i got into an argument with a guy at lunch about societal gender roles. (i tried not to get involved, i really did. but he kept insisting i discuss the necessity of a man 'protecting' me and deserving something in return- protecting me from what? i kept asking. i still don't understand). i was then told that with the swine flu outbreak, the clinic is expecting some cases. they don't want to bring these people with 'flu like symptoms' all the way into the clinic (even though they will be in the waiting area, infecting everyone else while they wait) so they are using the BEHAVIORAL HEALTH offices, right next to the front door, as the triage rooms. the regular triage room is 2 doors down from me. that's apparently too far. they don't want the germs to permeate. instead they want the germs in mine and jake's offices, where we sit everyday and see clients. oh, they'll clean though- with a can of lysol. they will go in and inspect the patients with gloves and a SARS mask, then spray some lysol and send us in there- sans mask. sans gloves. basically they're trying to give me the swine flu in time for arielle's wedding. did i mention that's in a month?

then, after a nice interlude of watching 'lost' with mimi, i call my aunt for her birthday and am updated on the latest case of family craziness. 'arielle is stressing herself out with the wedding' 'your mother hates the music she picked to walk down the aisle to' 'she thinks it's depressing jesus music' (we're jews. we don't do jesus. or bach, apparently). my mother, in all her glorious passive aggressiveness, sent arielle an email. the subject said "Bach" the email consisted of two words: lovely piece.
obviously this means she hates it. arielle forwarded it to me, and asked me if i had anything to do with this. like i cause her craziness! no. i have not had a converstaion with our mother about the music, because i would have told her she was insane. but arielle thought maybe mom was 'trying' to be supportive b/c i talked to her. instead, she's trying to not so subltey say she hates it. there are no trumpets, after all. and arielle needs to walk down the aisle to trumpets. probably with footmen trailing behind her to hold her train or something. wearing powdered wigs. or actually playing the trumpets!
my sister and i of course were like crying laughing so hard about this. among all the other craziness going on right now.

but i can't handle this. i've got to worry about keeping the swine flu at bay. and finishing planning the bachelorette party. and trying to get to the gym. and you know, staying sane.
so if you'll excuse me, i'm going to head to bed. and pretend today didn't happen.

and the bach really is a lovely piece. too bad it's banned from the wedding.